Do Not Despair of Good Work

Telling myself this a lot right now about my composing “career”, such as it is/not.

Some days, it’s nearly impossible not to despair of ever having my music find an audience. Say I finish the symphony: simple math still says it’ll likely never be played, even likelier never be recorded. (Getting a new symphony played, still less recorded, is very hard.) This is one of those days.

On these days, the thing I do is: remind myself that little likelihood” (which is not hyperbole but reality) is not the same as no chance”. And what is the same as no chance”? Not finishing the work at all. An unfinished symphony definitely won’t get played.

My ethos has always been winning slowly; it’s just that the slowly” part is sometimes nearly crushing. But winning” in the ways that matter only happens slowly. So: show up, do the work, keep on.